Wow, woke up & realized we are almost @ the end of the semester. Damn, where did the time go? Time flies when you are struggling & working your butt off. I had a break through w the the pieces we are working on. Katie & I signed to each other it seemed to make all the difference to me. I did not feel the anxiety, Katie had a look of encouragment on her face. I hope my grade on this piece reflects the decreased anxiety & that I get to see some progress. The most difficult part of this program is the battles w yourself. It is getting past doing something wrong vs doing something, you can always fix it later there are no second takes in this interpreting world. How many people work in a world where you get it right the first time or.....we were joking that we would be calling clients back 3 days later & saying, OH I SEE NOW, I KNOW WHAT IT MEANS! That can't happen. April said something that really struck me this week. Learning sign language & interpreting are two different things....I had never really thought about it, it seemed like the next logical step in the sequence of events. It is not.
We had an intense day yesterday, it does not bother me to recieve constructive criticism, if I am given the tools to improve I will give it my best. I have to admit it is weird to "hear" it this year. Last year you just felt it Ruby has a look that could melt the north pole.
Life is wild & wooly, but my outlook is better. I found someone who can tutor me and teach me to speak some Thai. Asian languages are a challenge, but so was sign language. We will see what happens but everything that I have learned here I will be able to apply as I move on and take this crazy step in life. I would not trade this experience for anything.
K