Sailing, takes me away to where I am going too, that is a song by Christopher Cross that is a million years old. It talks about the relaxation of sailing. Obviously Chris never had to interpret a technical piece about sailing. I am really having a hard time working through my own anxiety. But, there was progress, I made it all the way through the peice this time without self-destructing. I am still not quite able to make my brain do all the functions that it needs to do to process this information. By the time I am through with an interpretation, I could eat a cow on the hoof. It is amazing how much energy this takes.
Then we discuss it and April makes it looks so relaxed & easy.
Last year Ruby's tests make me nauseated, this year it is sitting down with an interpretation. that makes me freak out. After I am done I think of how it should have been done, it is a helluva case of being a Monday morning quarter back.
This is one of the most challenging programs I have ever been in and this aspect just turns me inside out. It was pointed out by another student that all the things I learn in this program will translate into my long term plans for life. There is nothing here that I am going through that isn't worth it. I am going to now go throw up and get on with my day.
As long as I progress and I continue to learn, but sometimes you wonder as you go through this, is it worth the blood sweat & tears?
Yep, it is.