We were rolling right along, until the sailing piece came up, that one threw me and did not do anything for my confidence. I was overwhelmed and fell apart. I cannot understand how one day we are doing 3 simple sentences about a snow shovel and then next a very complex piece with technical jargon. I simply sat there too long, overthought it an went into my anxiety mode. The good news that is the first time this year I have paniced, the bad news I am sure it will not be the last. I am really struggling with CL and use of space. I am working on learning CL with Danielle and it is helping, I need to utilize them more. The spatial use I struggled with last year, it is really hard for me. I am not whining just stating fact, I am going to try to work on it this weekend. I could not bring myself to even look at my video.

It takes time and practice, these things I know. This is a whole new realm. I will find ways to worth through it and deal with it. With my work schedule I have not had the study time that I had last year. I am my sole means of support so I can't really take time off to study. I am going to have to make quality time, because quantity of time I do not have.

I keep talking to myself, this is new, it is frustrating, it will take time and we made it through last year, we will make it through this year.

I didn't think the day would ever come that I could even ask Ruby a question, now that seems simple.

Tomorrow is another day, I will try it another way. I am my own worst enemy, when I panic I shut down.

It will get better, practice, practice, practice, practice, martini, practice :-).
K