Say what?

The clock is ticking. We start practicum & then we are on our way to? It doesn't seem possible. I still have not processed all that was yesterday, last week or last month. I think the month of
February is lost forever.
This is a crazy world, I am not sure where I fit. I realize that I am doing the same thing w sign language that I did when I started painting. I am taking it way too seriously. In the sense that you have learned the basics, start trusting yourself & taking some risks, have fun with it. A painting you can always change, you can paint over it. I think if you are with the right group of people that you can do the same w sign language. You have to find the right environment, where you can have fun & if you make a mistake you can, either do it again, forget about it or have a happy accident. Sometimes mistakes lead to great learning experiences or they were actually not a mistake at all.
In the class room you are so nervous. I feel like my schnauzer when I teach him a new trick. He wants that treat so bad his nose is sweating, he will do anything to get it. He will do all of his old tricks, but hesitate when he tries the new one... Maybe Ruby & April should incorporate some kind of special treat into their teaching routine. The cool thing is that you get nervous because you have instructors that motivate you. You want to try, to get it right, its a good thing. It is about learning to trust yourself & I am not sure when that happens.
Life is fast & furious. I am going to make it to practicum (I hope), then graduate @ the age of 45. Get a divorce, put my son on a plane to Iraq, go visit my brother in Singapore to see if he is doing his drinking w an IV & pole, come home move to a new apt, start my last year of school.....

T0 B CONTINUED..............