4,3,2,1

Wow time passes so fast when you are having fun or a nervous breakdown. This year has been a really wild ride. My life has been constant transition. Last week was one of those weeks when you really wonder if you need an exorcism or someone has put a curse on you. I could not complete the simplest task. When you are at the point that you feel like you are banging your head against a brick wall it is time to give it break. There is a point when you realize that stressing really doesn't help in fact it makes things much worse. It isn't good for you. Things come together in time & if it takes you a little longer than someone else it is no big deal. Don't measure yourself against someone else. Measure your progress & plan to improve, that is all you can do. I think going to work w Tracy will be interesting & allow me to learn w/o the stress of grades or a video camera. Considering that I have had pneumonia, been going through a divorce, knowing that my kid is going to Iraq, struggling w finances etc. etc. I think I came through it all pretty well. Much better than the last divorce, I ended up w Frankenstein tattooed on my ass, but that is another story for another day. This is the first time in my life I don't have parents, a husband or a son to dictate my decisions. My goals have changed & to be honest I don't know where the hell I am going. For those who seem to think that I need to have a certain destination in mind, what the hell do you care? It is my life. So for once I am going to throw away the plans & see what happens. I will be leaving for Singapore after school is out. I will be staying for 3 weeks. If things work out that may be where I am going. Hopefully, all the pieces of the puzzle will fit together or if not, you keep on searching. this I know, nothing I have learned or gained has ever been wasted. It seems to always be there when I need it. Countdown! K